Friday, April 11, 2008

I think this is proof that the opposite sex is a mystery to me??

4/11/08

I thought this meant she liked me? Now it means you don't? 3 days later.. that's ridiculous! Maybe it's the Red Stripe I'm drinking that makes me delusional?, but I was under the impression that a heart meant you freaking like the person,. Why is it wrong for me to hate that creep? Why can't I explain to her how much that hurts me, that she talks to him when I literally come up with something amazing every week to do, and she loves it, and wants to do it. Why do we get along so much, and when this one issue, that I think she should stop talking to a jerk and appreciate having a guy who cares about her so much, why is it that when it comes to that, we fight, because she won't just ditch him?! Just do it to show me that you want to make me happy in one thing. I know it's big, but it would mean the world to me.

I've changed so much for her. I never overreact about trivial matters. Case in point? I was so stoked to take her dolphin swimming on Friday, but she couldn't because she was going to visit her friends. Did I get mad? No. I said something along the lines of "no big deal, I wish I knew yesterday because I was getting excited but no biggie we can talk when you get back." I would have never said that months ago, I woulda have been irrationally mad and told her so. Sheesh.

I'm at my wits end. It's like, since I'm a different person about a lot of things, I just want to up and go. And be happy with some other girl. But I'm a sucker for her, because we compliment each other so well. Like on Easter, I made her an Easter Egg hunt, not to get her back, but because it brings me a lot of joy to do that for her. I don't think I could do that for anyone else like I do for her; I'm too lazy in the past with other girls.

Crap.

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