4/29/08

I stay on track like a box of Pumas

And I dont lose money chasing women
Cause nobody lost women chasing money

I have something more important than courage. I have patience.

4/27/08

C.R.E.A.M. Cash Rules Everything Around Me

4/25/08

Boston Red Sox I am determined to see you tomorrow. You are my Everest lol I'm comin!

I gotta get my guitar strings changed, and reset my piano.

4/24/08

I am Draculaaa and I am the star of my very own puppet show musicallll

I wanna goto Japan.

4/22/08

1 year broken hearted now her ghost is finally gone.
Done with broken people this is me I'm workin on.
Good love is on the way.
I'll be lonely but i know ill be okay.

You can take all the tricks up my sleeve I don't need them anymore.

I just woodyplaiged Woody Paige's chalkboard

4/16/08

"If at first you don't succeed, call it Version 1.0" - Woody Paige's chalkboard

oh... and hello! new car? Waiting for the Carfax history report..


I've wanted a jeep since I was in high school. I wanna take my jeep off-roading on the beach, too. The only draw back would be in stop and go, I hated my old 5 speed. You can't zone out and just go gas on gas off. So this new jeep, like my old 5speed car, would suck. They're fun as hell on the open road, but in stop and go they're a pain. You have to pay attention and use your feet and hands to just switch from 1st to second and go a mile an hour. It sucks. That, and the gas mileage, is literally the only thing keeping me from getting a jeep, because I anticipate a lot of stop and go in Orlando. And a jeep is more useful where I live now, on the key. For the beach, water sports, summer, etc. But a jeeps a jeep. And damn I'd make sweet love to that jeep.

So it's either the Jeep or the Camry, a $6,000 car I can get for half the price. But I'll feel like I'm married with kids driving around in a beige Volvo if I'm driving that damn Japanese car. I'll feel like Nicholas Cage in The Rock.

Current Side-beer: Newcastle
Previous Side-beer: Sierra Nevada
Currently Watching: Knocked Up, because Judd Apatow is Jesus

4/15/08

Whoa... she's awesome. And prettier than I remember..

bare knuckle baseball

4/15/08

I realized today that my place of employment is sucking at life when I showed up to work today and my days off this weekend magically disappeared. Speaking of magic, my magic 8ball says Yankees vs. Rays tomorrow and I'm ready to kick of MLB SEASON BABY

Also, I think I was robbed. Pretty sure, actually. I had $30 bucks in my wallet before I met some girl. Now I don't. And she wasn't a hooker heh heh

Street Signs

4/12/08

So I was looking through my computer at old photos I took a few years ago, and I spruced them up with some Photoshop intense skills. I may be pretty bored, but turns out, I'm also pretty awesome.

Clicking the image makes it bigger and you see the rest of it.

You might ask, why am I online? Because this town sucks, and no one goes out, and there's nothing to do. I can't wait to hit up the University. Because I'm seriously so good looking I'll be like so popular it may hurt. Watch out, I'm coming for you. And you will be entering the Marsh-zone laaadiess.
If I ever say that in public you have permission to stop me.





I found a black 4 Runner today that I might get. I'm stoked.

I think this is proof that the opposite sex is a mystery to me??

4/11/08

I thought this meant she liked me? Now it means you don't? 3 days later.. that's ridiculous! Maybe it's the Red Stripe I'm drinking that makes me delusional?, but I was under the impression that a heart meant you freaking like the person,. Why is it wrong for me to hate that creep? Why can't I explain to her how much that hurts me, that she talks to him when I literally come up with something amazing every week to do, and she loves it, and wants to do it. Why do we get along so much, and when this one issue, that I think she should stop talking to a jerk and appreciate having a guy who cares about her so much, why is it that when it comes to that, we fight, because she won't just ditch him?! Just do it to show me that you want to make me happy in one thing. I know it's big, but it would mean the world to me.

I've changed so much for her. I never overreact about trivial matters. Case in point? I was so stoked to take her dolphin swimming on Friday, but she couldn't because she was going to visit her friends. Did I get mad? No. I said something along the lines of "no big deal, I wish I knew yesterday because I was getting excited but no biggie we can talk when you get back." I would have never said that months ago, I woulda have been irrationally mad and told her so. Sheesh.

I'm at my wits end. It's like, since I'm a different person about a lot of things, I just want to up and go. And be happy with some other girl. But I'm a sucker for her, because we compliment each other so well. Like on Easter, I made her an Easter Egg hunt, not to get her back, but because it brings me a lot of joy to do that for her. I don't think I could do that for anyone else like I do for her; I'm too lazy in the past with other girls.

Crap.

Story of my Life

Upper Deck It!

watches, armbands, spontaniety, hard work, daydreaming

4/9/08

I know you like my style
You like how I break it down
- Jay-Z

Gotta do what you gotta do in life. Gotta have fun.

I'm a completely infantile adult.

I love it and wouldn't have it any other way.

Sometimes I think I should do stand-up. Everyone at work says I'm the funniest person they know, and I have them rolling on the floor, side-splitting laughing. Why not?

Seriously, why not?

I had a girl laughing so hard yesterday she was blowing up my walkie talkie asking for more. It's either my face, which is freaking AWESOME lol, or my outlook on life and having fun. And that's what she loves. That's what I love.

"Comedown"

4/4/08

Today was a good day. I went to work at 2, got off late around 10:30. Spent money last night so I'm going to stay in and save some tonight. I want to get a new digital camera soon off ebay, or a good used one.





He copied my armband. What a poser.





I took this photo.


And devilwoman took this photo.


I took this video last night at the Rossdale concert. Note my highly professional zoom skills. You can't learn that people. Skills like that are in your blood heh heh.



Also, took this video to demonstrate the superiority of camera phones to regular cameras. Hah. Right.
Actual Camera: 1 Camera Phones: 0

Once Upon a Time in the West

Hard-fi - Tonight
Groovy!

This song makes me want to leave. Aand leave I should.

4/3/08



Last nite she said, oh baby I feel so down
See you turn me off, when I feel left out
So I, I turned around
Oh baby don't care no more, I know this for sure
I'm walking out that door
Well I've been in town for just about fifteen whole minutes now
And baby I feel so down
See I don't know why
been walking for miles, Yeah

People they don't understand
Your girlfriends they can't understand
Your grandsons they won't understand
on top of this, i ain't ever gonna understand

Last nite she said, oh baby I feel so down
And you turn me off, when I feel left out
So I, I turned around
Oh baby going to be alright, it was a great big lie
Cause I left---that night

People they don't understand
Your girlfriends they dont understand
In spaceships they wont understand
And me I ain't ever going to understand

Last nite she said, oh baby don't feel so down
Well she turn me off, when I feel left out
So I, I turned around
Oh little girl I don't care no more, I know this for sure
I'm walking out that door yeah



I think that's the best song in the history of rock n' roll. And that's a fucking bold statement, I know.

I'm uploading it, even thought everyone knows this song.

The Strokes - Last Nite

I do.

I watch DVD Commentaries.

Busta Rhymes - Holla

Anything for you. Until my castles Blue.

4/2/08

I went up to Tampa secretly and put flowers, a card, and an inside-joke sand vile on her car (on her lat day at work). I set up a fun little secret easter egg hunt for her to discover on Easter, but when her mom was tired and wanted her to hang with her, I insisted that she watch a movie with her mom, even though I wanted to see her, so she could spend time with her family. I offered to drive her to the airport in Tampa from my house in the morning so she could go to New York, and I offered to pick her up and take her back after the trip. I helped her drop off her old car and get her new car, and drove around with her all day in it. It was great. And for that new car, I made her a mix cd with songs that made her cry. Because, I think, she knew I meant them. And I took care of Charles for a week.

How is she not my baby?

Yes, I have my days where I get so frustrated with her. She can really annoy me sometimes. Like, why does she tell me she loves me and wants to cuddle one day, and then the next day say she just wants to be friends? Cna't she just make up her mind? Then she says to me how much Tampa sucks and that she has no one to do the things I do for her there. And so I say I'm willing to be that guy, and help her, because I think she is a special girl. But no. It's never good enough. I'm not perfect, but I try to the best I can for her. She just gets under my skin sometimes. I mean, if no one else is there for her, and I am, and I continue to be, shouldn't I deserve her back? I do so much for her, stuff people only do if they care, and yet it seems to not matter. I can't figure out why. Yeah, I'm a jerk sometimes. And when I am, I'm a fucking asshole. It's my Irish/Scottish temper. I'm like Marsh the Tank but in a bad way. I'm like Judge Dredd with alcohol and I'll do or say anything when I'm mad. But if you can't handle me at my worst, why should she get me when I'm amazing? When I do all that stuff in the first paragraph... in the last 3 weeks.

All I wanna do is make her happy. And be happy with her.

one month

one month..

Forgetting Her

4/1/08

I'm tired of her. It's always my fault? Yeah. Well, I won't forget how much I put up with from her. Yet I choose not to get into it and therefore make you feel insecure, because every problem/flaw/character trait that bothered me in the first place about her stemmed from her insecurities about herself in the first place.
Back to seeing other people, because she obviously isn't who I thought she was.

Here's to turning over a new leaf. Thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great.

It's like I think I want her but I don't. I remember the good times, but in reality, when we hang out she's completely different than she used to be. And I try to see the good in her and give us a shot but what's the point?, she's a different girl and not right for me. We're like oil and water.

This is just beyond me now, and she can do whatever she wants. It sucks and it hurts, but it's not worth it anymore.

photo of the day

Look at me. I'm a bad kid.

MUSIC iLIKE

Lately I've been downloading a lot of music and completing my iTunes with ear jams. Here's whats bangin in my ear drums. Pun intended.

Lil' Ghetto Boy - Dr. Dre

I find this song very easy to relate to. Escaping the hood was a big part of my life, and to be able to say I survived, and be able to listen to this song, fills me with a sense of achievement. History aside, this song stands alone as a classic Dre beat. It's the perfect beat for cruisin in the 'LLac.

Up the Cuts - Against Me!

Great song. Great band. Yes Gabel, I am restless like you.

Mayonaise - Smashing Pumpkins

The intro riff on this song is amazing. This is angst done beautifully. Classic song from a classic cd.